Monthly Archives: October 2012

Holding the vision……no matter what


Holding the vision……no matter what.


ONE in a million


ONE in a million

I was talking with a friend the other day and was telling them about my idea of breaking the music paradigm of young, young, young to everyone, everyone, everyone no matter how old. I told him I was still going to keep going and look for investors or a record label and he said that it probably wouldn’t work because it would be a ONE in a million chance that they would recoup their investment on me.

I thought today, why am I not the ONE in a million. If I don’t start believing now that I am that ONE in a million..who else will. So I decided today that I am that ONE in a million and so is Norah Jones, Sting, Joni Mitchell, Lady Gaga, Beyonce, Emmy Lou Harris, Bruce Springsteen, Rihanna, Ray La Montagne, Ray Charles, Billy Joel, John Denver, Dixie Chicks, Keith Urban, Carrie Underwood, ROBIN HACKETT……you get it.

Someone said to me that we tend to think the good things happen to OTHER PEOPLE….but we are the OTHER PEOPLE… Smile. MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE……..NOW

Holding the vision……no matter what


It is in the stopping and starting and stopping and starting. A “No” throws my whole being off kilter and it sometimes takes me days or weeks to gather myself together again. I have been in this pattern for 30 years. Wow. Someone left a comment saying that my transparency has inspired them. I am happy to hear that because it is really scary to be transparent but I am going to continue.

Yesterday, I went down into a dark hole of wondering will I have ever be/have what I desire. Then I watched the OWN Network and Oprah had Joel Osteen on. The theme of the show was I AM. Whenever you say I AM whatever…….that whatever starts seeking you and chases after you…. I AM FAT…… I AM BROKE……I AM SUCCESSFUL….I AM BEAUTIFUL….   You get it, it chases you.

So of course I became reingnited (is that a word?) I am compelled to continue on/.



Dedicated and compelled


You would not believe the number of talented musical artists I know that are more than amazing. We are all older and we are all still doing this MUSIC thing. We can’t help it. We are compelled to pour our hearts into another song, another album. We all started out young and wanting to have a career and be abundantly compensated for what we do, but the years went by so fast, we didn’t realize it.

Please know that our fans (you) think we are incredible but we are constantly asked to perform for free. Our culture loves the arts but if you are not famous for what you do, people say “Oh my gosh I love your music, your voice..would you play at my restaurant……Oh we don’t have a budget for music but you will get exposure”.  I always ask, “Do the waiters, waitresses, cooks, and hostess work here for free? What is that that you would ask folks who have been working on their craft for many years to play for free. But if tomorrow any of us turned up famous, suddenly one would pay $50-$150 to see us in concert. Just sayin…….

A dream come true… to


I am a singer/songwriter and have been for many years. It is all I want to do. I will not wake up tomorrow and decide to become an insurance agent or a high school teacher or anything else then what I am doing. But I am getting older and I have wanted this dream since I was a little girl. So I am on a gentle quest to create my dream the way that I have seen it since I was a girl. 

Can an older person (me) become a breakout new artist and win a Grammy in this current paradigm of the music business where if you’re young and talented we will sign you but if you are old and talented, it’s over for you. NOT.

So here is my journey. I am truly intending to keep making beautiful music but I do need a retirement fund and health insurance. Whether I get signed somewhere or I place a bunch of my songs in major movies and or TV shows, follow me on this journey.

My music is no joke…..